I AM THAT FAT GIRL WORKING OUT........

I'VE READ TWO POSTS FROM FACEBOOK THIS AFTERNOON - BOTH KIND OF BOTHER ME.


HERE IS THE FIRST ONE --- http://news.distractify.com/people/to-the-fatty-running-on-the-track-this-afternoon/


AND THE SECOND ONE http://www.elephantjournal.com/2014/03/surprisingly-inspiring-to-the-fatty-running-on-the-westview-track/

I INTERPRETED THE FIRST ONE TO BE  INTENDED AS ENCOURAGEMENT.

I INTERPRETED THE SECOND ONE AS A REACTION THAT REFLECTS ANGER.

HERE GOES MY 2 CENTS WORTH.

I am the fat girl running on the track.

I saw a picture of myself on the internet and I absolutely freaked out. I AM FAT.

But I knew this already (really I did), and in my case, at the time, it was completely the result of crappy choices.

So I started working out. I found a group of ladies who were participating in a "bootcamp" style outdoor program. The first mile I completed took me 24 minutes. I cried - God how I cried. But you know what, those ladies surrounded me with support and encouragement. Not one of them pointed out how I got fat, actually not one of them even asked. They simply started with "next time will be better" and "please don't give up". They shared triumphs with me - shared setbacks - shared frustrations - concerns - we wroked hard - whined hard - and by golly - I kept coming back - and I lost 60 pounds. No judgement - no preconceived notions about my mental state - my bad habits - my ability or inability to complete anything.

And hello - I did not F*&*ing rock by anyones standards.

And I was inspiration to no one except myself.

I think the writer of the first link intended to be encouraging, but there was so much judgement in the phrases that I was offended - let me tell you - the ladies in my group - they did it RIGHT.

But I also am not angry like the writer of the second piece.

See - I am fat again -- not as fat mind you, but still I have gained some hard fought off pounds back.

I have become the leader of this bootcamp group - yes - LARGE and in charge.

I still workout hard - I still eat fairly well.

They still encourage me.

Because you see - now I really do feel like I F*&*ing rock. My weight gain is directly related to losing my kidney and adrenal gland to the big ASS "C" word. I battle with my endocrine system every single day. There are days, I can hardly put one foot in front of the other. Because protecting my remaining kidney is of utmost importance now, I can't use artificial sweeteners, I can't take anti-inflammatory meds, and I can only have minimal alcohol.

Tired - you have no idea.

Uncomfortable - almost all the time.

Freaked out because I have gained weight - not really

Angry because you might think I am lazy - or I have eating issues - or made bad choices - nope, not one freaking bit.

what you think about how I look - couldn't care less.
what you think about my choices - couldn't care less
what you think about my athletic ability - couldn't care less

you think I F&*&ing rock in spite of all these negatives --- Why, thank you very much - you are right, I do.

Because every day, I take better care of me than I did before. And I will go to my grave counting that among blessings and encouraging others to take better care of themselves too -WITHOUT PRECONCEIVED NOTIONS OF HOW THEY GOT WHERE THEY ARE TODAY - good, bad, or indifferent.

and those ladies working out with me - well they think I do  - and I they do too. See they were big enough to encourage without judging - or at least with the courtesy of keeping those judgements to themselves.

And not just those ladies - but others who have given me a smile when I really don't want to go work out - and the those I love who refuse to let me 'ditch bootcamp" for an insignificant reason - and other athletes who are farther along than me, but remember where they started too (including my daughters)

See yes - I Fucking rock - and I inspire others - and I inspire myself - and I don't care how the hell you start moving and taking care of yourself - and I don't care why you did or didn't to start with.

Here is what I do care about.

Join us - we will get to know you.
Join us - we will welcome you if you can walk 10 yards or 10 miles.
Join us - if you want to run, then by all means get out there and run.
Join us - the basics are there - we will adapt them if you need to. No need to hurt yourself.
Join us - we will encourage you right where you are today - and the next day - and the one after that.

Taking care of your body and mind is important - starting today you can make a difference - you may have been doing it all right for years - or you may have neglected things until today. no matter where you are - today is a chance to "do the right thing"


Life is too beautiful to judge others. And it is far too beautiful to worry about the judgement of others.

I FUCKING ROCK and YOU FUCKING ROCK TOO - so how about let's rock it helping each other?