remembering

My sister was in the hospital.

Complications from a gallbladder surgery.

She is going to be fine.

I am writing this because of my visit with her.

ARMC - 6th floor - unexpected, blindsiding reminder

I got off the elevator on the same floor I spent time on when I gave my kidney up to cancer.

Start towards her room -

Walking through the lobby area just off the elevators I was stopped in my tracks by the sunset view from those windows.

It was a view much like this that accompanied me in that same lobby over five years ago.

The view where I sat ALONE. Wondering what was to come.
The view where I sat ALONE. Bargaining with GOD.
The view where I sat ALONE. Making peace with whatever the outcome may be.

ALONE seems to be important in this, and it was - the being ALONE and the knowing that I was ALONE changed some things for me that have made my life so much better.

But this view was also where I told the lady about my faith . and it was where I decided to live fully - every single day.

In the few seconds it took to walk through that lobby, there was a flash flood of memory that washed over me and once again, I reaffirmed my vow to live fully - EVERY SINGLE DAY.

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I found a card yesterday.  There were words about my parenting of the girls. Softball Princess took off last week into the next phase of her journey. Staten Island,NY. The words were more appropriate than anyone could anticipate.  Thank you.