A Peaceful Season

The picture has nothing to do with the post.

I just love the old bridge structure so much. 

I continue to purge.

Good for my sanity. 

Amazingly very good. 

It is also HARD WORK. 

I have gathered (also known as hoarded)  for so many years.

As I go through the things, I can remember some of the ideas I had when I collected the items. 

Then today, as I was reading blogs, I read this

Physical clutter promotes mental, spiritual, and creative clutter, and at the beginning this mini journey, I already feel as though I can breathe again.

Kim Laws

I have spent years trying to fill that damned hole in my soul with STUFF. 

I hardly noticed that was what was happening. 

April 2010 - that all began to change.

I was unhappy.

stuffing STUFF into my home.

Into the studio space (the one that never really got finished)

And I watched it unfold as I took on the demons.

It has almost been like watching a movie, only I know the cast of characters so well. 

All this to say.

Last night I quietly worked ALONE.

Towards finishing a project.

I could see progress - held in a sandwich sized plastic bag

I repeatedly picked that bag up and smiled

I have had this project sitting for years. 

Then in cleaning out a box, I found a second started but either I burned out or I set aside the materials, project. 

I have not added it to the list of 

STUFF I AM FINISHING.

These two projects

are but a tiny drop in my bucket for the digging, purging, finishing, unpacking, dealing with

pile of crap in my home. 

The funny thing.

As I am finishing these projects

and

making a list of additional things I wish to accomplish.

And getting rid of that I can now see that I WILL NEVER USE. 

I am feeling much more at PEACE than I have in years

Will I stumble - I'm sure.
Will I fall - well that too.
Am I afraid - sometimes
Can I survive - I have so many things.

this PEACE feels like it goes to the core of my being.

I sure hope I can hang on to it.

LIFE IS CRAZY BEAUTIFUL.