My youngest graduated from college.
She moved to New York.
I am so proud of the young woman she is becoming.
My oldest daughter moved from an apartment into a house.
She had big breakthroughs in her research projects.
She gave credit to the good Lord.
I am so proud of the young woman she is becoming.
Me.
I have struggled.
Stopped.
Regrouped.
Stumbled.
Got back up.
Started over.
It has been a tough year.
I took lots of beautiful photographs.
the one above a favorite.
I made lots of projects (finished a few from the past as well)
And as difficult a year it has been for me (and a certain Crusty Old Guy),
I continue to proclaim
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL
Photo above courtesy of Molly.
I am a survivor.
Although I no longer wear that necklace 100% of the time.
Why? Because I no longer have to remind myself anymore.
I have gained some weight back.
How? Enjoying the hell out of life beautiful.
Taking the time to eat dinner with friends.
Or solitude by myself.
But then came the end of year commitment that I made to Molly.
I may have continued some over indulging on eating, but I honored the agreement to run a half marathon for my 50th birthday.
Hardest thing I have ever done voluntarily.
But I did it.
I trained.
I was ready.
Cancer scans first though.
Good news - you don't have cancer.
Bad news - there is a blockage in your kidney.
untreated leads to dialysis and ultimately transplant.
I have no time for that.
SO
I scale back my actual half marathon approach
run it a little slower than planned
still - I finished in under 4 hours (my personal goal)
and to protect my kidney through the run. I drank extra and was careful about staying as hydrated as possible.
3:44:27
one kidney
cancer survivor twice
facing surgery when this is all over.
makes me pretty badass I think.
then surgery.
stent placed.
follow up.
didn't work
do over
second surgery
another stent
pray this one works.
today finds me recovering from two kidney surgeries in two weeks
hopefully not facing a third.
I hate anesthesia
I hate pain meds
I hate being a singular kidney person
I didn't ask for this.
and today finds me realizing that I can hate it all I want to
But I still have to walk this path.
Because the alternative really sucks
it also finds me re-committing to be as healthy as I possible can.
I'll be eating better
exercising better
stress relieving better (this is the biggest reason for my weight gain)
the stress affects the adrenal function negatively.
because life really is beautiful and I got no desire to stop participating in proclaiming that fact.
And I am sure there are gonna be some really great moments to collect in the coming year.
So look out 2016 --- Progress is the word --- this one could shake some people's world
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